What Does One Do?

What do you do when he contacts you again?

Sending your heart aflutter.

Reminding you of your time together

And rendering you to the gutter.

As you talk to him you think

That maybe there's still a chance

Until he mentions something horrible

That crumples your confident stance.

He gave away something important

Something he can never give back

Something so valuable to a person

Something that pains you to lack.

At one time I thought it belonged to me

Only if a ring adorned my finger

But now any hope of that is completely gone

But still his face will linger.

I know it's stupid, I'm aware,

To think that he's telling the truth

That he's sorry and he cares

Even though he's usually aloof.

But maybe he is being truthful

And he still cares about me.

But I don't know what to think.

I'm left to wonder hopelessly.

I don't want his love back.

At least I don't think I do.

All I want is friendship...

That's what I'm supposed to do.

I'm to say "it's okay, don't worry"

And forgive him again, right?

Or am I to turn my back coldly

And forget him and his painful plight?

My friends tell me the latter

But what if they are wrong?

Could I possibly be passing up

The love I've wanted for so long?

I know I sound redundant

Continuously denying love

But it's true, I swear to you

Now it's just my heart I need to shove.

I must forget these silly worries

And live my day like it's my last

But if it is the last that means

We wouldn't have a chance to have a past.

Oh help me, Lord above

and show me what to do

I want you more than him

I swear these words are true.

Oh what I wouldn't give

To return to our first meeting

And turn and walk away

Make our first encounter fleeting.

There was time we loved each other

I know I did anyway

But I sometimes wonder if he loved me

Should I have kept my feelings at bay?

We don't love each other anymore

To that I do concur

But one thing I want to know

Did he really love her?

By Yours Truly