Unwelcome

Why do we sometimes enter into situations knowing that, in the moment, it'll be great, but later on it will hurt us? That's a very befuddling question, isn't it. I have been dealing with a certain situation for a year now...it keeps popping back up every time I think I've defeated it. Now, I believe I HAVE defeated this problem.

Everytime this situation has reoccurred, the sudden and unexplained end of this situation has tormented me. It has puzzled me, saddened me, embittered me, and many other things that are pulsating through my mind too quickly for me to type. However,I did an experiment this time when this situation came up...yet again.

My experiment was the following: I conciously entered the situation again, not being able to specify the number of reoccurance it was, being as there have been too many in the past. I observed, remembered, recorded, and saved anything that is reoccuring and also the happenings new. I analyzed them.I analyzed them from a third party observer type viewpoint. This helped me greatly understand what was happening and make an opinion based on what was best for me, not what I wanted. And most importantly, I did whatever was necessary to remain indifferent. I failed and some points and succeeded in others, but ultimately I remaind unattached to this situation.

My experiment worked. Yes, the situation evaporated once again. In the past, this is the time when I'm unhappy, dejected, unapproachable, and aloof. But this time, by maintaining a [mostly] indifferent standpoint, I emerge from the problem unharmed, not caring, and glad that I know I've finally overcome something. I can't even explain to you how happy I am that I never again have to worry about this problem. If it comes back, it will be, for the first time, unwelcome.

The Vast Immaturity of High School Girls

Before I begin my frustrated ranting, I'd like to clear something up. I do not think myself any better than the people I will discuss in this blog. I'm immature as well, just in different aspects. Everyone is immature to one degree or another. But that is an entirely different topic all together.

Girls will torment other girls will stupid, petty problems that will never matter in the real world. They fight over boys, each other, wearing the same dress to a dance, or just bumping into another girl who happens to be on her period and moody.

GIRLS, we are ruining other people's childhoods by being stupid and petty!!! Get off of your high horse and calm down!

No matter how great you think this guy is that you're fighting over, he isn't. I don't care how funny he is, how many sweet text messages he sends you, how many times he holds your hand or tells you you're the only one. If you and your friend even have a chance to fight over him, he isn't forth the conflict!
When I say if you have a chance to fight over him, I mean one of three things. A. He gives you both special attention. This is deceptive and gross. It's borderline cheating. B. He likes only one of you, in which case the other friend has nothing to be mad over. And C. he likes neither one of you, in which case you're both being petty and need to stop.

Another thing we fight over is each other. Nothing is more ridiculous than one girl harassing another girl because the second girl is "stealing" the first girl's best friend. Come on. I think it goes without saying that this scenario is the pettiest thing you have ever heard. Your best friend can't have another best friend? Do we realize that that same concept is what triggered ethnic cleansing??? I mean really, I'm laughing right now thinking about how stupid it is when girls do this.

Again, I'm not saying I'm any better than these girls. Yes, I realize it sounds like it, but I'm mostly just angry that my poor friend, who is very mature for her age, has to deal with this kind of ridiculous behavior.

To the girl harassing my friend, get over yourself or deal with me. I suggest the former. I know my friend won't tell you to back off and leave her alone because she is too nice. I will be happy to step in and take on that responsibility even though maybe I shouldn't.

To the girl that is being "fought over", you really should have remidied this situation from the start by not being a gossip and judgemental. If you had a problem with my friend, you should have come to her.

To my friend, hang in there. I wish I could tell you that girls being petty ends eventually as we age, but from what I've seen and heard of, it doesn't get much better. Instead of "you stole my boyfriend" it turns into "you slept with my husband." Instead of "you stole my best friend" it'll be "you stole my nanny." I'm very sorry this has happened to you. All you can do is learn to choose your friends wisely. You'll always have me, my dear. I'll never do anything to cause you deliberate harm. Love ya! :)

"To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world."

A Big World

With so many souls in the world
How can any be the same?
After a grand count of the population
The idea of similar souls seems rather tame.

I don't know about you
But in my insignificant opinion
I'd rather live in dynamic freedom
Than a monotonous dominion.