Hmmm...

Writer's block could not be more frustrating. I sit down bwith the intent of typing out some amazing, intelligent piece of writing and...nothing. How can on'es mind have absolutely nothing in it? That can't be true. There must be something going on in everyone's mind. I'm not sure if I'm making sense...but I guess the point of a blog is to make sense of the things in your mind.

Perhaps the reason I don't have a lot on my mind is because I feel no need to worry about anything at the moment. Which would be a first to be sure. I'm constantly worrying. I find that women are always worrying about something. Whether it's the report they have due in two days, the boyfriend who's losing interest, the crush who HAS NO interest, they children that haven't cleaned their room in four weeks, or the boss that keeps hastling them to turn in their data. Whatever it is, women are always worrying. Of course I can't say I have an absolute idea of how the male mind works, but I'm almost positive men don't worry as often as women.

That's another thing, all my friends that are girls have guy problems. If a girl says she doesn't have guy problems, she's lying. 99% of the time. But most of my girl friends come to me with their guy problems claiming that I completely and utterly "get guys". I'm here to confess, even though I would love to posses such knowledge, that that's not true. I hardly understand guys at all. There are certain things that I know simply because I have far too many guy friends, but I will not reveal my knowlegde for free. It costs a face-to-face conversation. But for those of my friends who think I know everything about the male population, I regret to tell you that is false.

I just realized that I began this blog having absolutely nothing to say. My mind is annoyingly inquisitive. I think my downfall will be that I am not inquisitive in class. I'm an extremely average student. I have two A's, and only one class is a core class, and that's because we're in a unit we learned last year. I'm not a great and insanely intelligent student. I just have lots of questions about people, places, and things.

All of what I know I've learned from other people. I think I gained my interest in the human mind, and how it works from my mom. She had her Ph.D. and studied psychology for God knows how long. She's most definitely the best role model a teenage girl could ask for. She's flawed, yes, but so are we all. I think the world, and espeically those know-it-all bosses of hers, have a lot to learn from my mother.

One thing I wonder about, is why some people are born so charming and smooth, and others just aren't. Is charm an inherited trait? Is it learned? I'd very much like to know. I'm a pretty awkward person when it comes to being charming. I don't try at all...which is probably where I've gone wrong. I find myself very content to just be me. That's probably horribly annoying to many people, and I probably should care what people think and not just say whatever I think when asked my opinion. Perhaps when others ask for my opinion on a matter I should hold my tongue, dial down the crazy, opinionated sarcasm, or simply warning that the following words escaping my lips may offend.

Well, whatever happens, however I behave, and whatever my mind ponders, I guess everything will play out the way it's supposed to. I wish I could say I hope all my questions in life get answered, but I simply have too many questions.